Sometimes I wish that I've never going to be in love again. And sometimes I wish I'm never going to be loved again. Everything is messed up inside me. I wonder to myself, "Why does bad things keep happening to me? Why do I have to let go of the person I love? Is this karma?" Everything I had. Everything I love. I have to let it go - to move on with life. I know. People say that there are tons of fish in the water. But must I test one by one to find the perfect one? I mean - it's so troublesome. The sentence "There are tons of fish in the water," - I don't believe in it. I believe that if two characters are in love with each other, it's fine. It's enough to be together forever. But they have to stay true with each other even if it's bad.
How I wish to be asleep forever. So that I will not face the truth - the truth that always hurt. Everyday when I wake up, problems keep coming back. Back into my head. Could I erase the problems? Unfortunately, I can't. Sleeping forever. That is like being dead forever. And it's equivalent to not exist.
